Today I turned 35 and I can't help but reflect on the past 12,775+ days (I didn't count leap years). In Biblical numerology, 5 is the number of grace and 7 is completion. That's 5 grace-filled complete trips of 7 around the sun. For the past two years or so, I've been in a sort of isolation that I've started to call "The Cave." I've been around and on different scenes, but I've been moving very differently and many times have opted to be alone. As a result, Made In The Cave was birthed. It comes from the idea that beautiful things are often birthed from dark places.
The beauty of this cave is that I've learned to truly accept myself and to release what I once saw as a badge of honor... being my own worst critic. I'd been beating myself up about failed friendships, unrequited love, fruitless business ventures and the amazing ideas that never left the pages of the many journals I've purchased from HomeGoods & Target. The Cave has taught me how to truly love myself, flaws and all and to embrace the idea that I have no control on what other people think of me, but I have complete control over what I think of myself.
I'm looking forward to this next season of my life where I won't make apologies for being who I am, but where I will also push myself through the periods of complacency and trifling behaviors that were in abundance during the first half of my 30s. I'm looking forward to a stronger relationship with Jesus, and 364 days of mind blowing adventure. I'm here for all of it... The highs and lows, the ebbs and flows; but most of all to sharing this journey with you. I have no idea what we're going to talk about or even if the things I'll think of will be worth sharing. My hope is that my journey will encourage and inspire my readers to do and to be... Unapologetically.
Anyway, welcome to my cave...